Saturday, June 27, 2009
well. i am not sure if i am weird. but i cant believe i actually heaved a sigh of relief when the letter came to tell me my appeal wasnt successful. =x because this gave a hell lot of problems. i am just glad life is starting to stabilise.
and so. i am officially a freshie of ntu chem eng. :D v few nj ppl. i guess they all went to nus. i did feel some form of regrets at some point or other. but! that's because i hav overlooked the good things. i hav my best friend as a room mate, other classmates in ntu as well, staying hall. friends. and i can start anew man. nobody knows me in chem eng. haha.
haha. yeah. today was pre-camp. i am going for FOC next week. hope it's fun. today was kinda low. i felt weird too.. and as usual i was my shy quiet self. haha. the side of me that most people know. quiet, petite, kiddish (i never say cute but u can relate to that) haha. yeah. guys outnumbered the girls. seniors were super high. serious.
i wanted to go for the cultural activities club FOC too.. but it clashes with my ibn exit.. oh and i met ivy, my pri sch friend! i almost couldnt recognise her. haha. ok correction i din recognise her, she recognised me. =x
i feel so much happier on weekends. work's stressing. :(
and i bot a pair of sandals today. and i wanted to get a spag top. but giordano selling 3 for $29. but i dont need that many spag. anyone wanna share with me??? i doubt anyone will reply. ahha.
bought lots of other stuff too mostly food. :8P bought donuts for jh's family, ocha.. in return for all the dinners/clothing/bags. i know those donuts and all will never be enough.. but its the thought that counts right? :D and i forgot to buy ziploc bags. -.-
dance and korean tmr.
i love the GSS. whee. claire! we should go shopping tgt when u come back. although i bet you will buy more stuff than me. haha. even blogshops have GSS lor. but i still dont trust blogshops.
i am too lazy to upload photos. i have like a lot in my phone.. ok.. alot of zilian ones so actually quite little la. haha.
things i wanna do before school starts:
go fishing!
go sentosa!
i want to go travel. but h1n1 plus no leave. as such travelling plans (if there is even any in the first place) have to be shelved. next hol then. i want to go taiwan/hk/redang. omg i think redang is quite cool.
and so. i am officially a freshie of ntu chem eng. :D v few nj ppl. i guess they all went to nus. i did feel some form of regrets at some point or other. but! that's because i hav overlooked the good things. i hav my best friend as a room mate, other classmates in ntu as well, staying hall. friends. and i can start anew man. nobody knows me in chem eng. haha.
haha. yeah. today was pre-camp. i am going for FOC next week. hope it's fun. today was kinda low. i felt weird too.. and as usual i was my shy quiet self. haha. the side of me that most people know. quiet, petite, kiddish (i never say cute but u can relate to that) haha. yeah. guys outnumbered the girls. seniors were super high. serious.
i wanted to go for the cultural activities club FOC too.. but it clashes with my ibn exit.. oh and i met ivy, my pri sch friend! i almost couldnt recognise her. haha. ok correction i din recognise her, she recognised me. =x
i feel so much happier on weekends. work's stressing. :(
and i bot a pair of sandals today. and i wanted to get a spag top. but giordano selling 3 for $29. but i dont need that many spag. anyone wanna share with me??? i doubt anyone will reply. ahha.
bought lots of other stuff too mostly food. :8P bought donuts for jh's family, ocha.. in return for all the dinners/clothing/bags. i know those donuts and all will never be enough.. but its the thought that counts right? :D and i forgot to buy ziploc bags. -.-
dance and korean tmr.
i love the GSS. whee. claire! we should go shopping tgt when u come back. although i bet you will buy more stuff than me. haha. even blogshops have GSS lor. but i still dont trust blogshops.
i am too lazy to upload photos. i have like a lot in my phone.. ok.. alot of zilian ones so actually quite little la. haha.
things i wanna do before school starts:
go fishing!
go sentosa!
i want to go travel. but h1n1 plus no leave. as such travelling plans (if there is even any in the first place) have to be shelved. next hol then. i want to go taiwan/hk/redang. omg i think redang is quite cool.
11:02 PM
Friday, June 26, 2009
boo. i'm tired. i banged my hand again today. :( i think its going to be paralysed soon. the muscles feel tense like 24/7.
okay. no early exit for me. boos. i really wanted to rest. its so tiring.................................................
i'm hungry. but i have no appetite. what irony.
precamp tmr. abit nervous. hahahaha. cos i don't know anybody.
plus i cant stay the whole camp which is damn sad because i cant take leave.
and i havent packed my bag for camp.
settled hostel applications finally.
blogging in one-liners because i dont feel like typing in paras.
haha. i want to go fishing!
my cousins went to Bottle Tree Park and caught a TON of fish. they spent a few hours there, 10bucks (catch all you can) no time limit.
shiok. i think i cant catch as many though. haha.
but no fish tank at home, so my xiaomei left her fishies at grandma's house. they fed some of the smaller fish to their lobster. poor fishies, being put in the lobster cage.
yesterday i took 3/4 day. wanted to go see the osteopath for my arm. chickened out bcoz i was afraid of pain. got my dad to be the osteopath.
and bought ice cream cake for yj and dad. yum.
okay. no early exit for me. boos. i really wanted to rest. its so tiring.................................................
i'm hungry. but i have no appetite. what irony.
precamp tmr. abit nervous. hahahaha. cos i don't know anybody.
plus i cant stay the whole camp which is damn sad because i cant take leave.
and i havent packed my bag for camp.
settled hostel applications finally.
blogging in one-liners because i dont feel like typing in paras.
haha. i want to go fishing!
my cousins went to Bottle Tree Park and caught a TON of fish. they spent a few hours there, 10bucks (catch all you can) no time limit.
shiok. i think i cant catch as many though. haha.
but no fish tank at home, so my xiaomei left her fishies at grandma's house. they fed some of the smaller fish to their lobster. poor fishies, being put in the lobster cage.
yesterday i took 3/4 day. wanted to go see the osteopath for my arm. chickened out bcoz i was afraid of pain. got my dad to be the osteopath.
and bought ice cream cake for yj and dad. yum.
11:08 AM
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
why.
i feel so stressed. everything is coming down on me, it's overwhelming. i dunno what to do. i feel so helpless. because there's nothing i can do. because i cant do anything.
its hard to put on a smile. that i stopped trying.
i feel so stressed. everything is coming down on me, it's overwhelming. i dunno what to do. i feel so helpless. because there's nothing i can do. because i cant do anything.
its hard to put on a smile. that i stopped trying.
3:47 PM
Thursday, June 18, 2009
hohoho. illhayo!!!! :( i am still working. boo. ot-ing. actually i realise i have been ot-ing everyday.. not leaving at 6pm sharp. haha. just lazy to move my butt. and its so quiet in the lab.. gee. scary. they say ibn is haunted. but i shall not think such thoughts.
haha. ok. ya. my thoughts were just wandering. wondering what uni will be like. whetehr i will become a changed person. whether my relationship can brave the next few months and years to come. sometimes i wonder what i am living for.
haha. ok. ya. my thoughts were just wandering. wondering what uni will be like. whetehr i will become a changed person. whether my relationship can brave the next few months and years to come. sometimes i wonder what i am living for.
6:42 PM
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
oh my i seem like such a no-life person.. because i was too busy living my life to blog. ok. nah. just like usual. weekends running here and there crazily. weekdays in ibn, staring at my cells, and they always die on me. :(
hmmmm.. actually my life quite happening the past week. i failed my first driving test! geez. haha. and oh well. taking again on 22 july. hope i pass then. :D and and and.. oh. went for kbox outing with cheryl and sx. she havent send me photos. :( haha. but they are the best friends i have since primary school. since pri 5. and they noticed that my hair was rebonded. which means i didnt waste that 115 bucks. omg.. and i din noe k student is so hua! 17.50 = snack +drink+ sides per person. and for 5 solid hours. i think we all sang till we were out of breath.
and i finally bought my ipod nano at the PC Show. with lots of freebies. :) haha. but it was packed man. omg. but luckily we went during the dinner time period so the queue was not too bad. then we went shokudo for dinner. since we were around the area. haha. and we both bought jap curry, just that his was katsudon while i got the rosti. lol. v curry-ish. and i had the matcha latte. :P my fave!
on sun i went for my first korean lesson. went to the temple to pray in the morning before going down to cityhall. haha. the lesson was not bad. the instructor kept repeating that we dont have to write anything because speaking is more impt. haha. annyong haseyo. and my hp no is ku-yuk-ku-ee-il-pal-ku-or! haha. so long.
after which me and my family went to jurong point to shop and have dinner, early celeb for my sis/dad bday. haha. ate ichiban sushi. ate till we were so full. omg. then we went to walk walk around. sis bought a jacket and a skirt, while i got 2 tops. jp is so huge that we digested all our food while we went to jalan jalan.
haha. and on mon, i failed my tp test. not a big deal to me, but the cost of more lessons is scary. after that we went bakerzin for lunch. yay. the NY cheesecake is damn nice. i want more! initial plan was to watch Dance Subaru. but there were so so so so many ppl. so we rented Click! i wanted to watch it a lonnng longg time ago. so long that i cant rmb when. haha. it was not bad, quite funny. but a bit lame.
ok. that's all i guess. till then. sayonara.
hmmmm.. actually my life quite happening the past week. i failed my first driving test! geez. haha. and oh well. taking again on 22 july. hope i pass then. :D and and and.. oh. went for kbox outing with cheryl and sx. she havent send me photos. :( haha. but they are the best friends i have since primary school. since pri 5. and they noticed that my hair was rebonded. which means i didnt waste that 115 bucks. omg.. and i din noe k student is so hua! 17.50 = snack +drink+ sides per person. and for 5 solid hours. i think we all sang till we were out of breath.
and i finally bought my ipod nano at the PC Show. with lots of freebies. :) haha. but it was packed man. omg. but luckily we went during the dinner time period so the queue was not too bad. then we went shokudo for dinner. since we were around the area. haha. and we both bought jap curry, just that his was katsudon while i got the rosti. lol. v curry-ish. and i had the matcha latte. :P my fave!
on sun i went for my first korean lesson. went to the temple to pray in the morning before going down to cityhall. haha. the lesson was not bad. the instructor kept repeating that we dont have to write anything because speaking is more impt. haha. annyong haseyo. and my hp no is ku-yuk-ku-ee-il-pal-ku-or! haha. so long.
after which me and my family went to jurong point to shop and have dinner, early celeb for my sis/dad bday. haha. ate ichiban sushi. ate till we were so full. omg. then we went to walk walk around. sis bought a jacket and a skirt, while i got 2 tops. jp is so huge that we digested all our food while we went to jalan jalan.
haha. and on mon, i failed my tp test. not a big deal to me, but the cost of more lessons is scary. after that we went bakerzin for lunch. yay. the NY cheesecake is damn nice. i want more! initial plan was to watch Dance Subaru. but there were so so so so many ppl. so we rented Click! i wanted to watch it a lonnng longg time ago. so long that i cant rmb when. haha. it was not bad, quite funny. but a bit lame.
ok. that's all i guess. till then. sayonara.
9:53 AM
Monday, June 8, 2009
i was reading this book by Linda Howard, about a female physician in the late 70s, who was abducted by an outlaw so that she could heal his wounds, after which they developed love for each other. their love wasnt the main point. something else struck me.
i couldnt remember the exact quote. but it's about the hippocratic oath, that physicians do not judge the worth of an ill human being before giving him the benefit of their knowledge and skills. which means that even if the person was a wanted man, a doctor is bound by this oath to heal him. so i was kind of wondering.. whether i would heal someone like that. i mean i was fantasizing. not that i will ever had such a chance. perhaps my medical friends can think about this. yeh.. perhaps i would. perhaps i wouldn't. i guess i am principled enough. but things will change, when laws come in place, and i might face a criminal charge for helping a criminal. i guess? hmm..
anyway, i looked up on the hippocratic oath. and wiki gave this:
"I swear by Apollo, the healer, Asclepius, Hygieia, and Panacea, and I take to witness all the gods, all the goddesses, to keep according to my ability and my judgment, the following Oath and agreement:
To consider dear to me, as my parents, him who taught me this art; to live in common with him and, if necessary, to share my goods with him; To look upon his children as my own brothers, to teach them this art.
I will prescribe regimens for the good of my patients according to my ability and my judgment and never do harm to anyone.
I will not give a lethal drug to anyone if I am asked, nor will I advise such a plan; and similarly I will not give a woman a pessary to cause an abortion.
But I will preserve the purity of my life and my arts.
I will not cut for stone, even for patients in whom the disease is manifest; I will leave this operation to be performed by practitioners, specialists in this art.
In every house where I come I will enter only for the good of my patients, keeping myself far from all intentional ill-doing and all seduction and especially from the pleasures of love with women or with men, be they free or slaves.
All that may come to my knowledge in the exercise of my profession or in daily commerce with men, which ought not to be spread abroad, I will keep secret and will never reveal.
If I keep this oath faithfully, may I enjoy my life and practice my art, respected by all men and in all times; but if I swerve from it or violate it, may the reverse be my lot."
hmm. i dun really understand the cut for stone section.. but that's the olden days version.. where physicians weren't allowed to practise surgery and euthanasia, pain relief etc were strictly against. the modern one is altered a little to fit into today's society..
1. To teach medicine to the sons of my teacher. In the past, medical schools gave preferential consideration to the children of physicians.[citation needed]
2. To practice and prescribe to the best of my ability for the good of my patients, and to try to avoid harming them. This beneficial intention is the purpose of the physician. However, this item is still invoked in the modern discussions of euthanasia.
3. I will not give a lethal drug to anyone if I am asked, nor will I advise such a plan. Physician organizations in most countries have strongly denounced physician participation in legal executions. However, in a small number of cases, most notably the U.S. states of Oregon,[5] Washington,[6] Montana,[7] and in the Kingdom of the Netherlands,[8] a doctor can prescribe euthanasia with the patient's consent.
4. To avoid violating the morals of my community. Many licensing agencies will revoke a physician's license for offending the morals of the community ("moral turpitude").
5. I will not cut for stone, even for patients in whom the disease is manifest; I will leave this operation to be performed by practitioners, specialists in this art. The "stones" referred to are kidney stones or bladder stones, removal of which was judged too menial for physicians, and therefore was left for barbers (the forerunners of modern surgeons). Surgery was not recognized as a specialty at that time. This sentence is now interpreted as acknowledging that it is impossible for any single physician to maintain expertise in all areas. It also highlights the different historical origins of the surgeon and the physician.
6. To keep the good of the patient as the highest priority. There may be other conflicting 'good purposes,' such as community welfare, conserving economic resources, supporting the criminal justice system, or simply making money for the physician or his employer that provide recurring challenges to physicians.
this version's more complete i guess. Oath link
there is a suggestion for a hippocratic oath for scientists too.. interesting.
i couldnt remember the exact quote. but it's about the hippocratic oath, that physicians do not judge the worth of an ill human being before giving him the benefit of their knowledge and skills. which means that even if the person was a wanted man, a doctor is bound by this oath to heal him. so i was kind of wondering.. whether i would heal someone like that. i mean i was fantasizing. not that i will ever had such a chance. perhaps my medical friends can think about this. yeh.. perhaps i would. perhaps i wouldn't. i guess i am principled enough. but things will change, when laws come in place, and i might face a criminal charge for helping a criminal. i guess? hmm..
anyway, i looked up on the hippocratic oath. and wiki gave this:
"I swear by Apollo, the healer, Asclepius, Hygieia, and Panacea, and I take to witness all the gods, all the goddesses, to keep according to my ability and my judgment, the following Oath and agreement:
To consider dear to me, as my parents, him who taught me this art; to live in common with him and, if necessary, to share my goods with him; To look upon his children as my own brothers, to teach them this art.
I will prescribe regimens for the good of my patients according to my ability and my judgment and never do harm to anyone.
I will not give a lethal drug to anyone if I am asked, nor will I advise such a plan; and similarly I will not give a woman a pessary to cause an abortion.
But I will preserve the purity of my life and my arts.
I will not cut for stone, even for patients in whom the disease is manifest; I will leave this operation to be performed by practitioners, specialists in this art.
In every house where I come I will enter only for the good of my patients, keeping myself far from all intentional ill-doing and all seduction and especially from the pleasures of love with women or with men, be they free or slaves.
All that may come to my knowledge in the exercise of my profession or in daily commerce with men, which ought not to be spread abroad, I will keep secret and will never reveal.
If I keep this oath faithfully, may I enjoy my life and practice my art, respected by all men and in all times; but if I swerve from it or violate it, may the reverse be my lot."
hmm. i dun really understand the cut for stone section.. but that's the olden days version.. where physicians weren't allowed to practise surgery and euthanasia, pain relief etc were strictly against. the modern one is altered a little to fit into today's society..
1. To teach medicine to the sons of my teacher. In the past, medical schools gave preferential consideration to the children of physicians.[citation needed]
2. To practice and prescribe to the best of my ability for the good of my patients, and to try to avoid harming them. This beneficial intention is the purpose of the physician. However, this item is still invoked in the modern discussions of euthanasia.
3. I will not give a lethal drug to anyone if I am asked, nor will I advise such a plan. Physician organizations in most countries have strongly denounced physician participation in legal executions. However, in a small number of cases, most notably the U.S. states of Oregon,[5] Washington,[6] Montana,[7] and in the Kingdom of the Netherlands,[8] a doctor can prescribe euthanasia with the patient's consent.
4. To avoid violating the morals of my community. Many licensing agencies will revoke a physician's license for offending the morals of the community ("moral turpitude").
5. I will not cut for stone, even for patients in whom the disease is manifest; I will leave this operation to be performed by practitioners, specialists in this art. The "stones" referred to are kidney stones or bladder stones, removal of which was judged too menial for physicians, and therefore was left for barbers (the forerunners of modern surgeons). Surgery was not recognized as a specialty at that time. This sentence is now interpreted as acknowledging that it is impossible for any single physician to maintain expertise in all areas. It also highlights the different historical origins of the surgeon and the physician.
6. To keep the good of the patient as the highest priority. There may be other conflicting 'good purposes,' such as community welfare, conserving economic resources, supporting the criminal justice system, or simply making money for the physician or his employer that provide recurring challenges to physicians.
this version's more complete i guess. Oath link
there is a suggestion for a hippocratic oath for scientists too.. interesting.
9:53 AM
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
haha. since my best friend wants me to blog i shall blog.
on sunday, when the consultant asked us if we knew korean, my dear friend said "konnichiwa!"
there. i have blogged. haha. :) a nice tribute no?
kk. serious. we went to enrol at Cambridge Institute for a basic Korean course. yep. and it is at Penisular Plaza, a place that doesnt smell fantastic, especially the first floor. jas says it smells like pee, i tot it smelt like poo, so it smelt like peepoo = toilet. ugh. but thankfully the learning centre didnt smell that bad. phew. and ya. nothing eventful except what i already mentioned. haha.
i am looking for fellow ntu chem eng ppl. :( so sad that i know no one.
oh back to sun. we went teo heng. and supposed to give jin yong a surprise cake. and guess wad happen. he didnt go toilet at all which spoils our plans. gee. anw we gave it uneventfully with no element of surprise at all :( in the end, after our katong laksa dinner. I just found out that katong laksa is eaten with spoons! k noob. and the otah was nice. yum.
erm... oh sat! sat we went back nj for dance prac. haha. it was an overall crazy day. though the speeches were long and boring, but there was donuts to keep us happy. haha. hanxie bought donuts for the juniors but it ended up as food for us. i think i shared like 3 with jun hong. omg. fat! but it was nice ya. i think i had a lot of donuts the past month. first was krispy kremes, flown from indo. then it was donut empire. now this. and each time i ate about 2 or so.. sinful. then we were supposed to go manhatten fish market at plaza sing for a bdae dinner with wanglao. but because we had to wait too long and jun hong wants to come my house to get my monitor, we had to go home early.. :( so we had pastamania instead. yumm i tried the clams and prawns pasta. i tink it's my new fave pasta. :) then trained home, ended up not giving away the old monitor cos it is really really old. its older than my grandpa. ok. not that exaggerating but it's at least 17 years old i guess.
danced on sun. they had a bdae celeb for wanglao but i couldnt go. :( but i wished him over the phone. :D haha. performance on 28, 29 aug. at i dunno where. oops.
ok. i am off to do my MTS assay. wheeha.. -.-
on sunday, when the consultant asked us if we knew korean, my dear friend said "konnichiwa!"
there. i have blogged. haha. :) a nice tribute no?
kk. serious. we went to enrol at Cambridge Institute for a basic Korean course. yep. and it is at Penisular Plaza, a place that doesnt smell fantastic, especially the first floor. jas says it smells like pee, i tot it smelt like poo, so it smelt like peepoo = toilet. ugh. but thankfully the learning centre didnt smell that bad. phew. and ya. nothing eventful except what i already mentioned. haha.
i am looking for fellow ntu chem eng ppl. :( so sad that i know no one.
oh back to sun. we went teo heng. and supposed to give jin yong a surprise cake. and guess wad happen. he didnt go toilet at all which spoils our plans. gee. anw we gave it uneventfully with no element of surprise at all :( in the end, after our katong laksa dinner. I just found out that katong laksa is eaten with spoons! k noob. and the otah was nice. yum.
erm... oh sat! sat we went back nj for dance prac. haha. it was an overall crazy day. though the speeches were long and boring, but there was donuts to keep us happy. haha. hanxie bought donuts for the juniors but it ended up as food for us. i think i shared like 3 with jun hong. omg. fat! but it was nice ya. i think i had a lot of donuts the past month. first was krispy kremes, flown from indo. then it was donut empire. now this. and each time i ate about 2 or so.. sinful. then we were supposed to go manhatten fish market at plaza sing for a bdae dinner with wanglao. but because we had to wait too long and jun hong wants to come my house to get my monitor, we had to go home early.. :( so we had pastamania instead. yumm i tried the clams and prawns pasta. i tink it's my new fave pasta. :) then trained home, ended up not giving away the old monitor cos it is really really old. its older than my grandpa. ok. not that exaggerating but it's at least 17 years old i guess.
danced on sun. they had a bdae celeb for wanglao but i couldnt go. :( but i wished him over the phone. :D haha. performance on 28, 29 aug. at i dunno where. oops.
ok. i am off to do my MTS assay. wheeha.. -.-
4:14 PM
