Tuesday, March 3, 2009
my second day of being officially unemployed. wondering if i should go find a job. yet i dread trying to find yet another meaningless job. staying at home has its pluses. you don't have to spend that much. free food at home, free of msg also.
i haven't been doing much. no i shouldn't say that. i did alot actually, stuff that i have been wanting to do for ages but i just haven't gotten down to actually doing them. I went jogging, i was surprised that i could rip myself from the blanket. but yea i did. then i came home & did housework. :) and went to teach tuition. that wasn't a bad first day of being jobless. haha. but today was just.. haha tv and tv. no more housework to do. plans to jog was thwarted by the heavy rain. super humongous. -.-
& prepared tuition materials. going to use the com for a while before i leave to go for my driving lesson. my 5 th lesson i think. had 3 instructors so far, but i thought that only 1 of them taught ok. my progress is still pretty slow i guess. =/ i seem to have more confidence on the road than in the circuit which is weird, because most people are the other way round.
actually i dunno wad to feel. haha. having mixed feelings. half of me enjoy this stay home and rot feeling, while part of me feel that its a waste of time. no friends to hang out with either, cos all of them are working. so it's really me & just me. would really love to go shopping sometimes, but i hate going alone. but i don't think i wanna get another job & delude myself that i am actually learning something, but hey, what am i actually learning?
what's the fluster with growing up? why the urgency to get out there to slog our asses off for other people? :(
anyway, i guess i have decided to just stay home just for this month, at least till A level results are released. before i actively go & get a job. am waiting for the interview for research attachment anyway, and if all goes well, i hope i get it. then i will really be doing something meaningful.
getting the jitters about the results. haha. nonchalent as i may seem. but i am really worried. =x i am afraid i guess. of disappointment, horrible feeling. :S
i haven't been doing much. no i shouldn't say that. i did alot actually, stuff that i have been wanting to do for ages but i just haven't gotten down to actually doing them. I went jogging, i was surprised that i could rip myself from the blanket. but yea i did. then i came home & did housework. :) and went to teach tuition. that wasn't a bad first day of being jobless. haha. but today was just.. haha tv and tv. no more housework to do. plans to jog was thwarted by the heavy rain. super humongous. -.-
& prepared tuition materials. going to use the com for a while before i leave to go for my driving lesson. my 5 th lesson i think. had 3 instructors so far, but i thought that only 1 of them taught ok. my progress is still pretty slow i guess. =/ i seem to have more confidence on the road than in the circuit which is weird, because most people are the other way round.
actually i dunno wad to feel. haha. having mixed feelings. half of me enjoy this stay home and rot feeling, while part of me feel that its a waste of time. no friends to hang out with either, cos all of them are working. so it's really me & just me. would really love to go shopping sometimes, but i hate going alone. but i don't think i wanna get another job & delude myself that i am actually learning something, but hey, what am i actually learning?
what's the fluster with growing up? why the urgency to get out there to slog our asses off for other people? :(
anyway, i guess i have decided to just stay home just for this month, at least till A level results are released. before i actively go & get a job. am waiting for the interview for research attachment anyway, and if all goes well, i hope i get it. then i will really be doing something meaningful.
getting the jitters about the results. haha. nonchalent as i may seem. but i am really worried. =x i am afraid i guess. of disappointment, horrible feeling. :S
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