Thursday, March 19, 2009
a few days ago, i stared at this space not knowing what to write. & this window closed along with all my other windows, that had youtube/nus/ntu/random websites. haha. and i just realise that the last post was on friday the 13th.
weekends were spent at nus/ntu open houses. a fruitful trip in my opinion. :) this is because of shangfei & xiuwen's sisters. they made the open house much more personal instead of the corporate "selling" style that it would have been. well. saw the universities in a new light. & i realise it's not all hip & high as it appears on those promotion videos. i must say i think both hostels look decent & pleasant to me. really. except that if i am going to nus, i probably won't be staying in the halls. mainly because of the fact that i have to sleep alone or with someone i don't even know. if i am going to ntu.. i'd probably stay if i can find a roommate. haha. ok blame myself for being a scaredy-cat. but i don't trust myself to overcome this fear that easily.
hmm. have been stressing over courses/schools. parental pressure is subtle yet present. it's like they say "i am not stressing you" but drop so many hints with comments like "oh.. have u applied for this this this scholarship?" & "nus is really better than ntu"(which is a v myopic statement imo) & although i don't take them seriously, but it is somehow affecting my decision making process.. =x because i care about how they feel about my choice. & i know choosing nus over ntu won't kill me.
blah. ok ok. but i guess i am more or less decided. just that i really really wish for life to settle down. haha. omg. sounds like i wan to get married & have a family. i mean university life. all these uncertainties now is horrible. it's like i wont know whether i am up to it or not or what the course is like until i am in it right?
well. mon & tues, went driving lessons. those last minute book one. hahah. trying to last minute book for today. but no slot. :( hope other ppl quickly cancel. tue was auto lesson. omg. it's really v easy, makes me regret not taking auto. :( it's like u don't have to care abt the stupid clutch. & stopping on the hill wont make u roll back. & i even went up to 60km/h. & the instructor took me to try the ramp. & he was stunned that i could control my vehicle as though i have done it before. haha. & tried the S course (which he asked me to just drive intuitively.. never even teach me technique, just "ping gan jue") & the crank course. haha. a relaxing lesson. he just reminded me to remember abt the clutch in my next manual lesson. which i hope is today.
wed went for my first day of work. at suntec.. for the food fair. it was... haha. kinda sian. abit of screw ups. like the first cup of drink was so damn saturated.. it was like drinking pure orange syrup. pity the first customer. & the chicken chop was so damn salty. but otherwise everything else was great. the peking duck roll is damn nice man. haha. tested one piece. which is otherwise worth 1 buck? the whole box of 6 costs 6 bucks. but still got people buy. & then towards the end of the shift, there was a lot of price cuts.. & free drink. cos nobody buy. honestly, if i attended the food fair, i wouldnt buy too. cos there were so much nicer food out there. there was katong laksa, nyonya cuisine, thai sharksfin, kueh pietee, pie kia, satay, otah.. the list is never-ending. but because of the poor response, i didn't have to go for work today & tmr.
ahh. got lesson! haha i am in luck. but i had to cancel one of my apr lesson to book for today's. -.- i tink i am crazy. suddenly having second thoughts.. -.- but aiya since cancelled already.. =x feeling the pinch.. maybe i should have gone private. it's really heartwrenching lor.. it's like spending 2000 plus just for driving. i better pass the 1st time. :( although i don pay for myself la.. hmm.. & my uni fee. i feel that i am a hard person to maintain. :x & thinking of my unemployed situation now.. ah.. i want my scholarship! hmm.
i should take more tuition classes. & stop being a lazy bum. but nobody to tutor. i don wanna tutor own relatives, it's like earning my own people's money.. hmm.. but i feel less bad, because besides my driving, i'm currently living off myself, not that i have much to spend anyway. i shop like once per year.
weekends were spent at nus/ntu open houses. a fruitful trip in my opinion. :) this is because of shangfei & xiuwen's sisters. they made the open house much more personal instead of the corporate "selling" style that it would have been. well. saw the universities in a new light. & i realise it's not all hip & high as it appears on those promotion videos. i must say i think both hostels look decent & pleasant to me. really. except that if i am going to nus, i probably won't be staying in the halls. mainly because of the fact that i have to sleep alone or with someone i don't even know. if i am going to ntu.. i'd probably stay if i can find a roommate. haha. ok blame myself for being a scaredy-cat. but i don't trust myself to overcome this fear that easily.
hmm. have been stressing over courses/schools. parental pressure is subtle yet present. it's like they say "i am not stressing you" but drop so many hints with comments like "oh.. have u applied for this this this scholarship?" & "nus is really better than ntu"(which is a v myopic statement imo) & although i don't take them seriously, but it is somehow affecting my decision making process.. =x because i care about how they feel about my choice. & i know choosing nus over ntu won't kill me.
blah. ok ok. but i guess i am more or less decided. just that i really really wish for life to settle down. haha. omg. sounds like i wan to get married & have a family. i mean university life. all these uncertainties now is horrible. it's like i wont know whether i am up to it or not or what the course is like until i am in it right?
well. mon & tues, went driving lessons. those last minute book one. hahah. trying to last minute book for today. but no slot. :( hope other ppl quickly cancel. tue was auto lesson. omg. it's really v easy, makes me regret not taking auto. :( it's like u don't have to care abt the stupid clutch. & stopping on the hill wont make u roll back. & i even went up to 60km/h. & the instructor took me to try the ramp. & he was stunned that i could control my vehicle as though i have done it before. haha. & tried the S course (which he asked me to just drive intuitively.. never even teach me technique, just "ping gan jue") & the crank course. haha. a relaxing lesson. he just reminded me to remember abt the clutch in my next manual lesson. which i hope is today.
wed went for my first day of work. at suntec.. for the food fair. it was... haha. kinda sian. abit of screw ups. like the first cup of drink was so damn saturated.. it was like drinking pure orange syrup. pity the first customer. & the chicken chop was so damn salty. but otherwise everything else was great. the peking duck roll is damn nice man. haha. tested one piece. which is otherwise worth 1 buck? the whole box of 6 costs 6 bucks. but still got people buy. & then towards the end of the shift, there was a lot of price cuts.. & free drink. cos nobody buy. honestly, if i attended the food fair, i wouldnt buy too. cos there were so much nicer food out there. there was katong laksa, nyonya cuisine, thai sharksfin, kueh pietee, pie kia, satay, otah.. the list is never-ending. but because of the poor response, i didn't have to go for work today & tmr.
ahh. got lesson! haha i am in luck. but i had to cancel one of my apr lesson to book for today's. -.- i tink i am crazy. suddenly having second thoughts.. -.- but aiya since cancelled already.. =x feeling the pinch.. maybe i should have gone private. it's really heartwrenching lor.. it's like spending 2000 plus just for driving. i better pass the 1st time. :( although i don pay for myself la.. hmm.. & my uni fee. i feel that i am a hard person to maintain. :x & thinking of my unemployed situation now.. ah.. i want my scholarship! hmm.
i should take more tuition classes. & stop being a lazy bum. but nobody to tutor. i don wanna tutor own relatives, it's like earning my own people's money.. hmm.. but i feel less bad, because besides my driving, i'm currently living off myself, not that i have much to spend anyway. i shop like once per year.
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