Tuesday, February 10, 2009
i just decided to shift. i really had no idea why.
anyway, insomnia is overwhelming me again. got woken up by an insect bite, and i have been awake since. rather i doubt i even slept at all. :x blah.
so it is 2.32 am and i am here blogging. to pass time. hoping that staring at the com might help me sleep better. can already feel the eye bags. eeps.
things just kept flitting through my head. memories. mostly unpleasant ones. pleasant memories don't keep people awake. i think i am really a lousy person. am i? i know there is a problem somewhere, a knot in my heart. but i just cannot figure out what. i am pretty lost.
what kind of person am i exactly. different people tell me different things. i guess the bad thing about having a boyf is that he tells you u are great no matter wad. and somehow i am living in self denial that i am an okay person.
i guess if i want to rank myself, i would put myself as below average. =/
i need a sleeping pill. i am feeling so damn tired. but i just cant sleep. and the tears just keep falling.
ah. even the air con timed out. everyone and everything is asleep now. except me.
oh man, i dread tomorrow morning, i doubt i can even manage to climb out of bed.
anyway, insomnia is overwhelming me again. got woken up by an insect bite, and i have been awake since. rather i doubt i even slept at all. :x blah.
so it is 2.32 am and i am here blogging. to pass time. hoping that staring at the com might help me sleep better. can already feel the eye bags. eeps.
things just kept flitting through my head. memories. mostly unpleasant ones. pleasant memories don't keep people awake. i think i am really a lousy person. am i? i know there is a problem somewhere, a knot in my heart. but i just cannot figure out what. i am pretty lost.
what kind of person am i exactly. different people tell me different things. i guess the bad thing about having a boyf is that he tells you u are great no matter wad. and somehow i am living in self denial that i am an okay person.
i guess if i want to rank myself, i would put myself as below average. =/
i need a sleeping pill. i am feeling so damn tired. but i just cant sleep. and the tears just keep falling.
ah. even the air con timed out. everyone and everything is asleep now. except me.
oh man, i dread tomorrow morning, i doubt i can even manage to climb out of bed.
2:31 AM
