Wednesday, February 25, 2009
actually i really have nothing to say. i guess u dont either. i am not surprised. what's there to talk about anyway?
went to my mama house ytd evening for dinner. really had a bloated dinner. there was curry fish head, lots of veggies (i like), and butter fried prawns. sounds like some zi char dinner, but it was cooked by my papa. oh and the soup is yummmm. and i was really really full. and then we just stoned around watching tv. and i was surprised at my crazed outburst at the variety show. i think i am mental.
i have nothing to say.
nothing at all.
went to my mama house ytd evening for dinner. really had a bloated dinner. there was curry fish head, lots of veggies (i like), and butter fried prawns. sounds like some zi char dinner, but it was cooked by my papa. oh and the soup is yummmm. and i was really really full. and then we just stoned around watching tv. and i was surprised at my crazed outburst at the variety show. i think i am mental.
i have nothing to say.
nothing at all.
11:39 AM
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
i am in one of those "i woke up on the wrong side of the bed" moods again. recently, i have been in a mental and emotional battle with myself. at times, i am really genuinely happy. but sometimes i can laugh but really feel like crying. nothing is wrong with my life, nothing wrong with my relationship. but i just don feel satisfied. i probably just hate this kind of a lifestyle. i realise i really have a strong inertia towards major changes. i am ok with small changes like my hair style or whatever. but if u want me to change myself, for example to stop dreading work and take it positively, i really take a long time to adapt. Honestly, even during this last week of work i still cannot start loving coming to work, or at least stop hating it enough to drag myself out of bed early. i managed it yesterday.. and today it is the same thing all over again. was really pissed off with the cupboard door, which fell. it is not the first time it came off. and the mess in the wardrobe. it's packed with all the clothes that i will NEVER wear, even at home. i wonder why it is still there. ugh.
And its not like i love being a pig. but whenever i organize the cupboard, it just becomes back to square one again. and my mum's constant nagging about keeping the clothes is not helping. i know it is very ungrateful of me to grouch about this. but i just aiya, i don't understand the flow of things done in my household. there's no fixed routine. everything is just done haphazardly. no chores assign, we do things when we feel like it. which probably explains the state of the house. and for god knows how many new years we have been trying to change all this, but it is never successful. i think we need zhong qing to come and help us, just like how they help ppl in the variety program to clean up the house.
ok i just spent the whole entry complaining. but i am really really envious of people who have nice clean and spacious houses.
i realise it's not the cupboard door that pissed me off this morning. but it is really myself that i am pissed with. the cupboard door just happen to be something i could blame. oh man, i really hate this.
an inferior complex, that is what i hate most about myself. it's really time to move out of my comfort zone.
did something radical, at least for my standards it is radical. i am just hoping for once, things will really go my way. i really should stop living in self denial and stop thinking too much. no more As to mug and fret over, yet i dont noe what the hell i am so uptight about.
have u ever felt so bad about your appearance that you just want to crawl back into bed?
have u ever stood squashed like a tuna in the mrt and gripping your hands to will yourself through the journey?
have u ever heard voices in your head arguing but u just want to shut them up and go to sleep?
have u ever felt so happy that u doubt that this happiness is a delusion?
have u ever stared at the ceiling and toss and turn in bed but just cannot sleep, even if u are really v exhausted?
on a lighter note, driving yesterday left me with another sense of accomplishment. went out on the road. :) great experience, though i really have to brush up on my braking. haha i always stop too far off or overshoot the stop line. looking forward to the next lesson. which is tomorrow. hope that i am not over-rushing things. but i have heard of friends who take like 2 lessons in a row in a day. so i guess i am pretty ok?
And its not like i love being a pig. but whenever i organize the cupboard, it just becomes back to square one again. and my mum's constant nagging about keeping the clothes is not helping. i know it is very ungrateful of me to grouch about this. but i just aiya, i don't understand the flow of things done in my household. there's no fixed routine. everything is just done haphazardly. no chores assign, we do things when we feel like it. which probably explains the state of the house. and for god knows how many new years we have been trying to change all this, but it is never successful. i think we need zhong qing to come and help us, just like how they help ppl in the variety program to clean up the house.
ok i just spent the whole entry complaining. but i am really really envious of people who have nice clean and spacious houses.
i realise it's not the cupboard door that pissed me off this morning. but it is really myself that i am pissed with. the cupboard door just happen to be something i could blame. oh man, i really hate this.
an inferior complex, that is what i hate most about myself. it's really time to move out of my comfort zone.
did something radical, at least for my standards it is radical. i am just hoping for once, things will really go my way. i really should stop living in self denial and stop thinking too much. no more As to mug and fret over, yet i dont noe what the hell i am so uptight about.
have u ever felt so bad about your appearance that you just want to crawl back into bed?
have u ever stood squashed like a tuna in the mrt and gripping your hands to will yourself through the journey?
have u ever heard voices in your head arguing but u just want to shut them up and go to sleep?
have u ever felt so happy that u doubt that this happiness is a delusion?
have u ever stared at the ceiling and toss and turn in bed but just cannot sleep, even if u are really v exhausted?
on a lighter note, driving yesterday left me with another sense of accomplishment. went out on the road. :) great experience, though i really have to brush up on my braking. haha i always stop too far off or overshoot the stop line. looking forward to the next lesson. which is tomorrow. hope that i am not over-rushing things. but i have heard of friends who take like 2 lessons in a row in a day. so i guess i am pretty ok?
4:24 PM
Sunday, February 22, 2009
haha ok i spent the last few minutes trying to think of a nice way to begin this post but everything just comes out very very cheesy.
met up with the girls yest, i was late because of the stupid 961. went nj in the morning for dance prac, am rather impressed by the syf item, wang da's choreography never fails to awe me. really wish them all the best for this year's syf. yup, next time i go i shall wear gong ku hahahaha. seeing them really makes me feel like moving my fat ass too.
yah so i rushed down to party world and was late for 1 hour. --" well. then we had this surprise bdae thing for xiuwen. :) haha. the ktv ppl came in with the cake and they inserted the happy birth day song in the song list. :) an early happy birthday. i believe she is really surprised. haha. >< so we sing, sang and sung. till my throat became hoarse but i am actually ok now, can sing still.
haha. photos on face book.
went for dance this morning and think i am really a lousy dancer.
met up with the girls yest, i was late because of the stupid 961. went nj in the morning for dance prac, am rather impressed by the syf item, wang da's choreography never fails to awe me. really wish them all the best for this year's syf. yup, next time i go i shall wear gong ku hahahaha. seeing them really makes me feel like moving my fat ass too.
yah so i rushed down to party world and was late for 1 hour. --" well. then we had this surprise bdae thing for xiuwen. :) haha. the ktv ppl came in with the cake and they inserted the happy birth day song in the song list. :) an early happy birthday. i believe she is really surprised. haha. >< so we sing, sang and sung. till my throat became hoarse but i am actually ok now, can sing still.
haha. photos on face book.
went for dance this morning and think i am really a lousy dancer.
8:50 PM
Friday, February 20, 2009
haha. i am really supposed to be studying my ftt now. but somehow i seem to be slacking. -___- the test is at 430! and its 2 already. eeps. haha. anyway, last minute hug buddha leg oso no use right..
ok so i took the day off and today i am slacking. spent the whole morning sorting out my photos. saw many pics of evil step family, mostly of meikwan. HAHA. speaking of which i am such a blurdo. i kept thinking the outing in on sun on sun.. then i only just realised its tml! -.- so i guess that settled my weekend plans.
yah and since i am going to be jobless soon, i hope to achieve some things during my unemployment period. haha.
1) i should organise and synchronise all my mp3es in all the laptops in the house. its such a mess i don even noe which com to go to if i want to listen to a particular song. --"
2) print some of the nicer photos soon and compile a nice 2008 album. (that really sounds impossible)
3) clear my wardrobe. its a warzone. -.-
4) drive!
5) find more tuition. since i am jobless should have time to commit. haha.
6) would really want to find someone to attend a dance course...
seems like the above is in order of possibility, the first one being the most achievable. -.- haha. ok no 4 is out of place. haha. since i have already book lessons for the first half of march. hope to learn before august when ssdc will move to woodlands. cos that will mean a new driving test route and no that is not what i want. especially if i have practised most of it at yck.
ok so i took the day off and today i am slacking. spent the whole morning sorting out my photos. saw many pics of evil step family, mostly of meikwan. HAHA. speaking of which i am such a blurdo. i kept thinking the outing in on sun on sun.. then i only just realised its tml! -.- so i guess that settled my weekend plans.
yah and since i am going to be jobless soon, i hope to achieve some things during my unemployment period. haha.
1) i should organise and synchronise all my mp3es in all the laptops in the house. its such a mess i don even noe which com to go to if i want to listen to a particular song. --"
2) print some of the nicer photos soon and compile a nice 2008 album. (that really sounds impossible)
3) clear my wardrobe. its a warzone. -.-
4) drive!
5) find more tuition. since i am jobless should have time to commit. haha.
6) would really want to find someone to attend a dance course...
seems like the above is in order of possibility, the first one being the most achievable. -.- haha. ok no 4 is out of place. haha. since i have already book lessons for the first half of march. hope to learn before august when ssdc will move to woodlands. cos that will mean a new driving test route and no that is not what i want. especially if i have practised most of it at yck.
the dear little boy that is a testimony to the phrase love at first sight..
cute little zhen yang. :D my face looks fat next to his. -_-
haha ok so there were a couple of photos that i "dug up". one was taken seriously long ago.. the other at cdac chalet just last year dec.
the two people that have made my sec4 life easy to pass. been a long time since i've met up with naomi actually. haha. and i must thank jas for being there all the time, sorry i forgot to call u the other day, haha. i believe u arent as ji chou as u claim to be right. :D
1:44 PM
Monday, February 16, 2009
♥ my first driving lesson!!!!!!!!
tonight's my first driving lesson. haha. feeling excited yet not sure of what to expect. hope my instructor is a really nice person. :/ for that i shall try and enjoy my work here today.
well, a very very belated happy valentines' day to all.
my vday this year was.. different i suppose. haha. lesser people around, not with friends, but with family and bf. am really touched by the bouquet of "fake" roses that jh made, just because i said i don like real flowers cos they will eventually die off. and the card, the photo album and the mickey mouse heart. initially we had intended to go back nj for dance, but seems like a lot of people weren't going back, so we changed our plans. went to his place first, cos he claims that carrying the gift around is rather inconvenient. haha. when i reached, he was still busy making the present, and refused to allow me up. -.- so i played with his nephew, baby Daryl, at the playground. Daryl is really cute. He's quite shy? haha, he only plays with you only if you have treats for him, like ice cream. and he finally remembered my name!
so he finally finished the present and let me up. -_- thanks. haha. well, his mum and sis helped. but i was pleased nonetheless. but the shirt i got him was too humongous. :( so we have to get it changed at northpoint again someday. bleh. played with Daryl. haha. then we went for lunch and headed for suntec city for 'Let's Talk NTU 2009'. haha. poor him had to sit through all the talks when he is already considered a student of NTU. -.- sorry. i didn't expect my parents to be unable to make it for the earlier talks. the talks left me pretty unsettled again, questioning myself about what i really want. :x
ahh. oh well, after that dinner with my parents. it was haha a bit weird, cos it's a first time. and i had no idea that my dad was such a shy person! he didn't say anything to jh, except kept smiling. 0.0 haha. my mum was like always, with lots to say. haha.
anw, i am going to be jobless soon. in about er 2 weeks. i'm not sure whether i feel happy or sad. i feel happy that i do not have to wake up early and get bored at work. but i feel sad because i will definitely feel like a bum at home and not feel like going anywhere or getting anything done. and also, the lack of money. :( not that i spend wad i earn anyway.
feel sleepy everytime i open my theory book. but its like omg less than a few days away. its this friday. :x sianz.
had no appetite recently, no idea why.
dance ytd left me with a sore ankle and a bruised esteem. feeling inadequate. i think i dont dance well at all.
but i am really hungry now! i wanna eat fried bee hoon/carrot cake. i miss the good old weekend breakfast we used to have at home.
well, a very very belated happy valentines' day to all.
my vday this year was.. different i suppose. haha. lesser people around, not with friends, but with family and bf. am really touched by the bouquet of "fake" roses that jh made, just because i said i don like real flowers cos they will eventually die off. and the card, the photo album and the mickey mouse heart. initially we had intended to go back nj for dance, but seems like a lot of people weren't going back, so we changed our plans. went to his place first, cos he claims that carrying the gift around is rather inconvenient. haha. when i reached, he was still busy making the present, and refused to allow me up. -.- so i played with his nephew, baby Daryl, at the playground. Daryl is really cute. He's quite shy? haha, he only plays with you only if you have treats for him, like ice cream. and he finally remembered my name!
so he finally finished the present and let me up. -_- thanks. haha. well, his mum and sis helped. but i was pleased nonetheless. but the shirt i got him was too humongous. :( so we have to get it changed at northpoint again someday. bleh. played with Daryl. haha. then we went for lunch and headed for suntec city for 'Let's Talk NTU 2009'. haha. poor him had to sit through all the talks when he is already considered a student of NTU. -.- sorry. i didn't expect my parents to be unable to make it for the earlier talks. the talks left me pretty unsettled again, questioning myself about what i really want. :x
ahh. oh well, after that dinner with my parents. it was haha a bit weird, cos it's a first time. and i had no idea that my dad was such a shy person! he didn't say anything to jh, except kept smiling. 0.0 haha. my mum was like always, with lots to say. haha.
anw, i am going to be jobless soon. in about er 2 weeks. i'm not sure whether i feel happy or sad. i feel happy that i do not have to wake up early and get bored at work. but i feel sad because i will definitely feel like a bum at home and not feel like going anywhere or getting anything done. and also, the lack of money. :( not that i spend wad i earn anyway.
feel sleepy everytime i open my theory book. but its like omg less than a few days away. its this friday. :x sianz.
had no appetite recently, no idea why.
dance ytd left me with a sore ankle and a bruised esteem. feeling inadequate. i think i dont dance well at all.
but i am really hungry now! i wanna eat fried bee hoon/carrot cake. i miss the good old weekend breakfast we used to have at home.
10:33 AM
Friday, February 13, 2009
| You See the World Through Green Colored Glasses |
 You judge all your interactions through the lens of harmony. You figure you have something to learn from everyone, and you listen well. You face challenges with a persistent attitude. You can see the prize at the end of the road, and you have the strength to get there. You see love as the utmost expression of self-esteem. You have to love yourself before you can truly love someone else. At your worst, you are greedy and selfish. You love money more than you'd like to admit. You are happiest when you are in nature. You appreciate the feeling of balance that being outdoors brings you. |
i am feeling nostalgic. i was reading my old posts on blogger. and i realise.. how time really flies. how much i have changed. and yes, how i wish things could have been different. that's besides the point.
i wish i could have been there when you felt like nothing can ever make u smile from deep within. i wish i could have been there to make things all better. while i really hope that one day u will share those darkest moments with me, i know that it is never the same as going through them together. somehow, i would rather you not tell, so that you never have to relive those memories. i am sorry i cant understand, because i have never been through anything like it myself. my moments of depression were probably peanuts to you. but from now on, come what may, i really hope to make life better for you, and for myself. :)
its really time to move on.
5:22 PM
♥ Black friday
i guess there is this superstition that friday the 13th is unlucky. but this friday is different because of the vday mood in the air. it is definitely different in the office than at school. i can imagine that the school is bubbling with gifts and everyone is celebrating this unofficial holiday. if i recall, my last valentines' day was.. haha. i rather not discuss. brings back some memories that are uncalled for.
ok since its black friday, shall talk about my phone which fell into the toilet bowl. the good thing is that my dad let me use his new lg touch screen phone. the bad thing is i still prefer my old phone. haha. all my contacts are gone lor, in the sony phone. and the worse thing is sony mem card cannot be used in lg phone, so my music is all gone too. please be kind and send me your numbers pleeease... haha.
and since i have no more mp3 to listen to, i have been listening to 933 the whole day. and they are spamming love songs and duets. nice. :) and emo songs too, they claim it is for people who are single/people who just broke up/people who are in an unhappy relationship.
i just finish YOUR present. you better give me the look of surprise ok?! haha. at least pretend that you are surprised. haha.
just sing me ni shi wo zui shen ai de nu ren, i will be satisfied. haha. just kidding. where got so easy to please??
and my dept is pro-ness. have already 3 people who are on leave! whatttt it's like their leave is free.
i cant wait to go home!!! but there's tuition tonight. ;( will miss the engineering show.
feeeeeeefiiiiiifooooofummm.
ok i am bored, was being random.
*yawns* shall go read my final theory. bleaghs.
ok since its black friday, shall talk about my phone which fell into the toilet bowl. the good thing is that my dad let me use his new lg touch screen phone. the bad thing is i still prefer my old phone. haha. all my contacts are gone lor, in the sony phone. and the worse thing is sony mem card cannot be used in lg phone, so my music is all gone too. please be kind and send me your numbers pleeease... haha.
and since i have no more mp3 to listen to, i have been listening to 933 the whole day. and they are spamming love songs and duets. nice. :) and emo songs too, they claim it is for people who are single/people who just broke up/people who are in an unhappy relationship.
i just finish YOUR present. you better give me the look of surprise ok?! haha. at least pretend that you are surprised. haha.
just sing me ni shi wo zui shen ai de nu ren, i will be satisfied. haha. just kidding. where got so easy to please??
and my dept is pro-ness. have already 3 people who are on leave! whatttt it's like their leave is free.
i cant wait to go home!!! but there's tuition tonight. ;( will miss the engineering show.
feeeeeeefiiiiiifooooofummm.
ok i am bored, was being random.
*yawns* shall go read my final theory. bleaghs.
3:24 PM
Thursday, February 12, 2009
wow. i am blogging everyday. i realise i am counting down everyday to the time to knock off. and i still have 7 hours to go for today. :( sad. i cant wait for the end of this contract, i'm looking forward to 1 march. actually 27 feb.
such counting down will only serve to make the work here more miserable. =x so i tink i should get something else to look forward to. hmmz.. weekends are coming soon. this sat is valentines day. haha but no i am not going out, going for the ntu talks at suntec city. so we are having a belated vday celebration on sun instead. cant wait to see the look on his face when he sees his gift. wahhaha. but i am really no good with secrets, so many a time i really felt like giving it all away. -.-
looking forward to every dance lesson now. without homework to rush, exams/tests to study for, seems like dance is much much more enjoyable, and i dont dread travelling all the way to little india and climbing the small hill for dance lessons. i really wish to push my limits as to how much more i can improve. my flexibility has already plunged.. ridiculously, till the point that my first dance lesson resulted in a full blown body ache. haha. but surprisingly the 2nd lesson wasn't as bad, i guess the focus of the lesson was lifted from stretching.
the next thing i really am looking forward to is my first driving lesson! haha. i have been only reading all the theory parts of driving, like what to do to move off, stop etc. that i really want to have a go at stepping those pedals. haha. i guess whether i can master the technique of driving also boils down to whether i can co-ordinate my limbs. haha. 6 years at dancing may not have given me the neccessary skill i must say. haha.
i am not looking forward to my final theory test which is next week as well. *gulps* i feel rather ill-prepared.
tuition lesson tmr night. and i have yet to prepare any materials.. uh oh.
and i really wish that the year can kickstart officially soon. hope to be able to settle down and be a nerd. (8-D) haha. no. thou shall not be a typical njcian when i go uni.
and i made my first cpf contribution! even though it is just 150 bucks. lolz. which also implies that i am 150 bucks short of spending.. boos.
am feeling a hole in the pocket. what with vday coming up. ><
such counting down will only serve to make the work here more miserable. =x so i tink i should get something else to look forward to. hmmz.. weekends are coming soon. this sat is valentines day. haha but no i am not going out, going for the ntu talks at suntec city. so we are having a belated vday celebration on sun instead. cant wait to see the look on his face when he sees his gift. wahhaha. but i am really no good with secrets, so many a time i really felt like giving it all away. -.-
looking forward to every dance lesson now. without homework to rush, exams/tests to study for, seems like dance is much much more enjoyable, and i dont dread travelling all the way to little india and climbing the small hill for dance lessons. i really wish to push my limits as to how much more i can improve. my flexibility has already plunged.. ridiculously, till the point that my first dance lesson resulted in a full blown body ache. haha. but surprisingly the 2nd lesson wasn't as bad, i guess the focus of the lesson was lifted from stretching.
the next thing i really am looking forward to is my first driving lesson! haha. i have been only reading all the theory parts of driving, like what to do to move off, stop etc. that i really want to have a go at stepping those pedals. haha. i guess whether i can master the technique of driving also boils down to whether i can co-ordinate my limbs. haha. 6 years at dancing may not have given me the neccessary skill i must say. haha.
i am not looking forward to my final theory test which is next week as well. *gulps* i feel rather ill-prepared.
tuition lesson tmr night. and i have yet to prepare any materials.. uh oh.
and i really wish that the year can kickstart officially soon. hope to be able to settle down and be a nerd. (8-D) haha. no. thou shall not be a typical njcian when i go uni.
and i made my first cpf contribution! even though it is just 150 bucks. lolz. which also implies that i am 150 bucks short of spending.. boos.
am feeling a hole in the pocket. what with vday coming up. ><
11:25 AM
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
i feel like i am doped. been feeling like i am in an econs lecture the whole day. cant believe i can actually doze off while playing with my pet in pet society.
no idea why. i am feeling far away from civilisation. yet the irony is that i am in the CBD now. had mac's for lunch. :s noo the fats are going to pile up. 2 hours a week for dance is simply not enough to get rid of them. -.-
it is really nearing results release day. (sorry for the stark reminder) but i havent really settled down in something that i want to do in future. cant really differentiate the dreams from the reality. many half-hearted decisions, but nothing that i can do without my results. really see no point in dreading it, no matter what it is, it cant be changed. i hate being stuck but not knowing where to move on from here.
it is like i am at a crossroad with a thousand paths, not knowing which to take. not knowing my results is like me wanting to move on but my tyres are flat. even if i had any idea which path i want to take.
bah. my trip back to nj was... not what i expected. pfft.
no ties, nothing to hold me back. i really should move on and stop thinking about my stupid past. wish someone can give me a hard whack on my head and make me lose all my memories. why do they only give mengpo soup to people who have already passed on?
i'm wishing for a new lease of life.
no idea why. i am feeling far away from civilisation. yet the irony is that i am in the CBD now. had mac's for lunch. :s noo the fats are going to pile up. 2 hours a week for dance is simply not enough to get rid of them. -.-
it is really nearing results release day. (sorry for the stark reminder) but i havent really settled down in something that i want to do in future. cant really differentiate the dreams from the reality. many half-hearted decisions, but nothing that i can do without my results. really see no point in dreading it, no matter what it is, it cant be changed. i hate being stuck but not knowing where to move on from here.
it is like i am at a crossroad with a thousand paths, not knowing which to take. not knowing my results is like me wanting to move on but my tyres are flat. even if i had any idea which path i want to take.
bah. my trip back to nj was... not what i expected. pfft.
no ties, nothing to hold me back. i really should move on and stop thinking about my stupid past. wish someone can give me a hard whack on my head and make me lose all my memories. why do they only give mengpo soup to people who have already passed on?
i'm wishing for a new lease of life.
3:50 PM
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
i just decided to shift. i really had no idea why.
anyway, insomnia is overwhelming me again. got woken up by an insect bite, and i have been awake since. rather i doubt i even slept at all. :x blah.
so it is 2.32 am and i am here blogging. to pass time. hoping that staring at the com might help me sleep better. can already feel the eye bags. eeps.
things just kept flitting through my head. memories. mostly unpleasant ones. pleasant memories don't keep people awake. i think i am really a lousy person. am i? i know there is a problem somewhere, a knot in my heart. but i just cannot figure out what. i am pretty lost.
what kind of person am i exactly. different people tell me different things. i guess the bad thing about having a boyf is that he tells you u are great no matter wad. and somehow i am living in self denial that i am an okay person.
i guess if i want to rank myself, i would put myself as below average. =/
i need a sleeping pill. i am feeling so damn tired. but i just cant sleep. and the tears just keep falling.
ah. even the air con timed out. everyone and everything is asleep now. except me.
oh man, i dread tomorrow morning, i doubt i can even manage to climb out of bed.
anyway, insomnia is overwhelming me again. got woken up by an insect bite, and i have been awake since. rather i doubt i even slept at all. :x blah.
so it is 2.32 am and i am here blogging. to pass time. hoping that staring at the com might help me sleep better. can already feel the eye bags. eeps.
things just kept flitting through my head. memories. mostly unpleasant ones. pleasant memories don't keep people awake. i think i am really a lousy person. am i? i know there is a problem somewhere, a knot in my heart. but i just cannot figure out what. i am pretty lost.
what kind of person am i exactly. different people tell me different things. i guess the bad thing about having a boyf is that he tells you u are great no matter wad. and somehow i am living in self denial that i am an okay person.
i guess if i want to rank myself, i would put myself as below average. =/
i need a sleeping pill. i am feeling so damn tired. but i just cant sleep. and the tears just keep falling.
ah. even the air con timed out. everyone and everything is asleep now. except me.
oh man, i dread tomorrow morning, i doubt i can even manage to climb out of bed.
2:31 AM
Monday, February 9, 2009
I decided to shift. No reasons, i just felt like it.
6:12 PM
